04. Falling because of Fate Or Fallen for Fate.

The soft music soothed my ears. The walking feet refused to pause. The heart cried for what fate had scribbled for death while the brain wondered why he let her do so.
On what must have been the seventh circle of the jogging track, I felt the temperature drop to sub zero level and shivered as my mind realized why.

I looked around and saw him. Eyes wide, I indicated the place and people around. And all he did was smile. Indicating me to follow him, we walked towards the far end of the park and sat on a bench below the maple tree.

He pointed towards my ears. Confused at first but feeling stupid the next second, I removed the earphones and paused the soulful cries of Adele. I stared at him while I debated on voicing the questions my brain was busy listing only some time back. Sighing, he brought them up as though reading my thoughts word by word.  “ Yesterday, after I left, I realized that I should have narrated all chapters of my life rather than just the painful ones. Ones that may have put forth fate in a light I’m not even comfortable imagining”, said Death.

“Well…stop imagining about it then. Fate is fucking with your life. Someone should make her understand that even death has and should be able to live and love his life!”,  I cut him mid speech.

Jaw tight, he replied “And that’s exactly what I thought you must be thinking about her. Stop. Don’t. Did you think that maybe fate is being directed too? Or why do I not fight against her?”

“Yes. No. Yes. …Ugh...why?”
Simply, he answered, “Because I know why and I love her. Even for directing me. So much that I became the classic love - sick fellow writing poems for her. Hear one…”

He kept talking while the shock waves rippled through me after every word he voiced.

“A glimpse at you and words fail me,
A glimpse in your eyes and I can read the volumes of love written only for me.
So deep are my feelings for you that I fear they may drown you,
So fiery is my love for you that I fear its flames may engulf you.

Each inch of me craves for your touch, each beat of my heart calls for your heart
What I feel for you scares me at times, Why I feel for you I fail to understand
The fear of losing you sleeps with me,

The need to protect you gnaws me.

You walk beside me with an angelic smile,
You are the reason I want to survive.”

For the first time in life, words failed me.
I was so dazed that I did not even realize for how long I was quiet, and alone.
Standing up, I slowly started walking back home while my brain struggled to believe that the last conversation had really taken place. 

-Come back to know  how fate is being directed.

Same time, same blog, some day.

Till then, let yourself be shocked.  Don't jump to conclusions. 

Life always has an element of surprise, shock for some of us ;)